Jesus brought rescue not anger. Encourage & build each other up.



When All the World is Spinning ‘Round


“When All the World is Spinning ‘Round”

* My Heart Song Inspired by Psalm 13 *

When all the world is spinning ’round.
You look up but there’s the ground.
Nothing seems to make good sense.
God where are you, my heart’s in dents.

I read Your Word I seek Your name.
Humans, humans we’re to blame.
For this mess of strife and fear.
Arrogant apple we sadly endear.

Grace, Grace You whisper my name.
Grace, Grace I’m never the same.
Holy Healer, Lamb of God, You never leave me.
With You, no loss. With you, no loss.

Dancing ’round Your Love surrounds.
Continually we push You out.
But to You, Your Holy name,
No matter what You hear proclaims.

Hard work of healing, help me Healer.
Pain and sorrow, bring me joy.
Cracks of light, fill me with courage.
Dust off doubt, draw closer to You.

Grace, Grace You whisper my name.
Grace, Grace I’m never the same.
Holy Healer, Lamb of God, You never leave me.
With You, no loss. With You, no loss.

* Favorite Verse from Psalm 13:5-6 *

“But I will trust in Your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in Your salvation.

I will sing to the Lord, for He has been good to me.”

Grace Gratitudes,


God Fills Our Hearts with Love: Even when Suffering


We lost my husband’s father (link for more)…

…had someone told my husband and I on our wedding day, that in the year of our 25th wedding anniversary we’d lose both dads to lung cancer, I think we both would’ve buckled in grief before walking down the isle.


But I need you to know that if our suffering ultimately encourages other souls around us to know God will help them with ALL things, filling their hearts with love–even when suffering–then I’m confident this will honor our memory of my husband’s father more than anything.

After all, nurturing souls was the core of my husband’s dad, wanting everyone to join him at his celebration party for and with Jesus, in all things.

Just like my husband’s father stood under the cross praying for us the day he married us 25 years ago, I believe in my heart these prayers continue even in heaven, petitioning on all our behalf we celebrate Christ’s love.

God FIlls Our Hearts with Love: Even when Suffering

Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory. We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. ~Romans 5:1-5

Grateful God fills our hearts with love. Even when suffering.

Grace Gratitudes,


Expect Unexpected Grace

Looking into my little daughter’s giant heart while gazing through her grief drenched eyes is simultaneously honoring and heartbreaking.

Honoring because I receive the security she feels in my arms as a gift from our Holy Spirit.

Heartbreaking because I want to snatch the pain from her.

But I can’t.

I can only teach my sweet girl how to navigate grief and trust God to help.

Part of this modeling comes in trusting God for help in unexpected moments of being real.

Just like my sweet girl was real last night, asking for help with her sadness when she broke down in response to a climate change with her grandfather fighting lung cancer, God too wants her to know He’s always there to help. God’s help is never ending (*she lost her other grandfather to the same a few months ago–yes, you read that correctly–lung cancer struck both grandfathers. I hate cancer.).

Psalm 46:1-

God is our refuge and strength,

always ready to help in times of trouble.

Consequently, this morning while walking my daughter into her school office to provide an update, I literally also walked into an opportunity to model embracing God’s help prompted by being real in a safe, unexpected moment. Once I opened the door and saw dear office personnel I-love-oh-so-much, I had a surprise cry fest right then and there as everyone was starting their day.

It was like the world stopped on it’s axis for a moment. The hustle and bustle of parents and staff prepping for school spun around me as the words of office personnel spoke comfort straight to my heart. It’s as if they were on angelic assignment. For this stop in time–my real–this time in the form of tears in a school office, gave the Holy Spirit a moment to help.

In other words, as my “I’m so DONE with cancer!” tears of grief streamed down my face in our school office this morning, I was also reminded God is continuing to teach me to His grace is so much bigger than me. He pours it on regardless of my expectancy, or not.

Grateful God wants me to expect unexpected Grace.

Grace Gratitudes,



Grace Faith

Grateful for this gift of faith, inspiring me to celebrate grace gratitudes:

The Gift of Faith

Faith is the thread we hold onto when our life is falling apart.

We experience it when we see the power of an ocean and the fragility of a dried-up dandelion.

And we know that in such times we are in touch with the Spirit.

In describing this gift of faith, I am not saying that we always feel vibrant and confident.

Even the most spiritual and most faithful among us at times

have dark moments and gloomy moods.

But with faith we have resilience, we have a reservoir of courage,

strength and hope to draw on when we encounter pain.

And we stand ready to be used by the spirit in whatever plan God has for our lives.

When we feel the Spirit, it’s like coming out of a fog.

We know it can get foggy again, but we also know that there’s sunshine behind the fog,

and the mists will clear, and the Spirit will shine through once again.

The light of the Spirit frees people, unburdens them,

fosters growth and transformation and allows them to make healthy choices.

Spirit comes to us like wind blowing through and through–

taking away pretenses, games, phoniness.

We are who we are. We are set free.

And free people help to set others free.”

-Sharon Wegscheider-Cruse


Strength & Peace in Pain

This has been an I’ve-never-been-more-miserable-season.

Cancer took my dad. I’m watching my husband help his dad fight cancer…

I hate cancer.

But I also want you to know I’ve never been more filled with strength and peace only God can give.

“… when we are weak, He is strong…”

-2 Corinthians 12:9

“…peace which surpasses all under standing…”

-Philippians 4:7

Trauma has a way of bringing us to a day-by-day, moment-by-moment pace as it forces us to measure our powerlessness, and stop enforcing and inserting our own strength and resolution into crisis as we realize we’re asking the impossible of ourselves, ultimately surrendering to the gift of pain, letting God be God. I can stop playing god by setting down my self sufficiency.

At least this is what trauma is teaching me.

Exhaling as I hand the reigns of control and masks of, “I can do this on my own,” pride to Him.

I’m a Christ follower because I’m broken and need a Healer. So I get to be broken, because I am.



So as I continue in this season of trauma which is seeming to be my new normal–with crisis being my break–I need you to know I’m OK. Ney, I’m better than OK, I’m thriving in the covering of my Healer God, watching Him work His strength and peace in the most miraculous of ways.

I wouldn’t change that for anything.

He is my, “Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.”

-Isaiah 9:6

This is my way of saying thank you for praying as your petitions are my life line, but I don’t want any to worry. God is in control, and I’m encouraged.

Today’s devotional from “Jesus Calling,” by Sarah Young is a reflection of my heart sentiments above, and also a gesture of appreciation for your love and support.

Grace Gratitudes,


November 4 Devotional, “Jesus Calling,” Sarah Young:

Walk peacefully with Me through this day.

You are wondering how you will cope with all that is expected of you.

You must traverse this day like any other: one step at a time.

Instead of mentally rehearsing how you will do this or that,

keep your mind on My Presence and on taking the next step.

The more demanding your day, the more help you can expect from Me.

This is a training opportunity,

since I designed you for deep dependence on your Shepherd-King.

Challenging times wake you up and amplify your awareness of needing My help.

When you don’t know what to do, wait while I open the way before you.

Trust that I know what I’m doing, and be ready to follow My lead.

I will give strength to you, and I will bless you with Peace.


-Exodus 33:14

-Deuteronomy 33:25

-Hebrews 13:20–21

-Psalm 29:11